The Beach (short story preview)

the beach

I’m currently working on a new short story, tentatively titled The Beach. The beach is set on a mysterious chain of islands, following the adventures of Eria [they/them] and Kei [also they/them]. I’m not quite sure where I’m going with it yet, as it’s still very rough around the edges, but I wanted to put out a few chapters just to help motivate myself to continue writing.

The Beach

1.

They knew it was cliché to sit there and watch the waves crashing over the sand, but what else could they do? Not that there was much happening elsewhere. The town was small, and there was nothing to do but watch the setting of the sun in the sky, which proceeded to light up everything in a streaking rainbow from bright gold to deep reds, finally in the purples and blackish blue hues of space beyond.

Eria preferred it this way though, to have these sunsets by themselves. It was a kind of escape from everything else. As the sky grew dimmer, the bonfires began to light up the beach one-by-one, forming their own constellation along the sand. From Eria’s distance, the laughter coming from the crowds was faint and muffled by the gentle cacophony of the foamy surf.

Over the horizon, the faint outline of another island could be made out. Which one was that again? They didn’t know their geography well, but they knew they were in a chain of about twenty or thirty islands, each with varying weather patterns and wildlife. One island might have an abundance of fruit, another an abundance of wool, so they would share the surplus with each other.

Travel was encouraged. One could visit any island they chose by way of the ferries, which were operated as a sort of inter-island collaboration. Work (if one could call it that) was usually a type of farming, herding, hunting or crafting, done as a contribution, and usually as a collaborative effort. The more quickly things got done, the more quickly things could move to festivities, which were by far the most important things the islands shared. Most festivities were informal, like the ones Eria was watching at the moment: people gathering around bonfires, having a few drinks, playing music and dancing. Kids and elderly were usually present, at least on their island, because there was no separation between the old and the young.

Other than that, games were another thing that most people enjoyed. There were no leagues to speak of on the islands; competitions were a little more spontaneous. If there was a group of people that were hanging out and wanted to play Ball, they would do just that. Some people preferred races, and some people preferred building contests, since most people across the islands took pride in their constructive abilities.

Because the interaction between islands was high, what tended to be more important was the characteristics of the islands themselves, which far outlasted people anyway. One island was known for rain, another for its volcanic outbursts. One had an especially large population of trees and birds. People felt like it was the islands guiding them, more than any particular rules or structures they themselves had developed. And like the islands themselves, these structures changed over time.

Although people from place to place were different, their roles weren’t separated by the type of body they had. It was more interesting the way people were different than how they were the same, whether a person was taller or shorter, what color their skin was, what body parts they had. On these islands, things tended to be motley, and people could respond to each other with curiosity and playfulness.

2.

Eria was curious what their friends were up to, so they went down to one of the bonfires. There were a few people chatting and a few kids playing off in the distance. Eria said hi to everyone and found their best friend Kei. Like Eria, Kei had colorful hair, and a very eclectic style of clothes (“found from around all the islands”).

“Heya, did you eat yet?” Eria asked.

“Yeah, ate just before I came here, how bout ya?” Kei replied.

“Yeah, I’m good. How long you been here?”

“Huh, I don’t know, I think a little while maybe? I kinda lost track of the time.”

“Yeah, I think that’s the idea?” Eria said with a playful bite of sarcasm.

Kei kicked a bit of sand Eria’s way and started walking towards the surf. The last rays of the sun were setting over the ocean, bathing everything in a golden light. They walked on to the wet part of the sand, and Kei began tracing their own name with their foot. “You ever get tired of this place?” Kei asked nonchalantly.

Eria was taken a little by surprise at the question. They paused for a moment and said, “Nah, I’ve never even thought about something like that… could you tell me a little more?”

Kei looked out at the setting sun. The sound of the waves crashing in during the high tides always had a sort of relaxing feeling, but there was also a sense of mystery, like anything could happen during the twilight hours. “I just don’t know, Eria. It’s not that I’m bored, exactly, but things are all starting to feel a little bit… the same, you know?”

Eria couldn’t really comprehend this sort of thinking. Their own days were fully busy. Mornings feeding animals, afternoons playing with and making lunch with the youth, afternoons practicing their personal art. The activities changed based on the day, as well. If it was harvest time, more help was needed tending to the plants. Sometimes, emergencies happened and their help was needed tending to an injured or dying person. It was also possible that one day they could assist in child birth. These responsibilities were shared by everyone and were not always easy, but they were what allowed the islands to function normally, with plenty of free time for everyone. It may have been a lot of things, but it certainly wasn’t boring.

“So what have you been doing these days?” Eria asked, hoping to get a little more detail.

“Well, just the usual mostly. Mornings have been spent mostly irrigating. I’ve gotten into food prepping a lot in the afternoons, and sometimes I’ll take a night shift with the hospice.”

“Hospice can be tough work.” Eria said with a nod of empathy.

“Actually, I kinda like it. People still have so much to share, even when they’re in a difficult stage. I’ve heard so many stories. Funny ones too. There was this one person who told me about how they got attacked by a gang of kittens at the animal café once. Something about how they didn’t bring milk to share with them.”

“Oh yeah, those cats don’t fuck around.”

“No, they don’t. Being cute is a serious business.”

“True.” Eria sat on the sand just close enough to let the water touch their toes. “How bout your art?”

“It’s meh, to be honest. Music isn’t really going anywhere, can’t write for shit.”

“Painting?”

“Well, that’s all the same, y’know? Trees and sunsets and whatever.”

Eria sat for a minute, thinking about that. Painting was one of their own favorite things to do, something that filled up quite a bit of their free time. It was difficult to imagine the possibility of running out of things to paint. There wasn’t really anything to say at the moment, so they just sat there looking for the emerging stars. Venus was already visible in it’s familiar dull-white glow. After a minute, they looked over at Kei with a smile and said, “sounds like it’s time for a voyage.”

Kei shoveled a big piece of sand with their foot and heaved it towards the ocean. “Dammit Eri, you know me waayyy too well.”

Kei took in a big gulp of air, as if Eria had found a nice pressure point during a massage, and let out a sigh.

“I can’t do this, not right now.”

“Just think about it, ok?” Eria said with a reassuring smile. “It’ll probably do you some good to just see a few other things out there.”

Kei dug out another toeful of sand. A tiny pool of water had begun to form as the waves rolled in.

“Yeah yeah yeah. Until then, you gotta help me out. Can’t take a break if I’m too busy, y’know.”

“O’course! Anything you need. What’s first on the list?”

“Well, we need a goalkeeper in a few days…”

“Oh no…” Eria wasn’t usually the type to play beachball.

“Oh YEAH! You did say anything, right?”

“But seriously, that?” “What are friends for, Eria?” Kei replied with a wink.

“I know. But hey, I just remembered I’ve got some incredibly important furniture to arrange back at the commons.”

“Of course you do! But don’t forget. Two days from now, mid-morning!”

Eria gave Kei a playful pretend shove and headed off, as the waves continued to roll in along the darkened beach.

3.

“Kei is so amazing,” Eria wrote in her diary. “They’ve got so many talents, and it seems like they never use them. If I was half as fast, or half as strong, I could go so many places! Don’t get me wrong, I’m not jealous, but I do genuinely want them to find happiness. It’s too bad happiness, for them most likely exists away from this particular island. It’s not like I’d be a great partner or anything though.”

Eria let out a little gasp at writing the p-word, because it wasn’t exactly something they had considered in Kei until that moment. Instantly, they felt a slight bit of regret. For one thing, Key enjoyed sex, and having it quite regularly with multiple partners. Eria didn’t enjoy sex, and tended to prefer one partner. That being said, Eria didn’t see themselves exactly as the romantic type either. They’d prefer really to just have a bestie to hang with, share a place with. If the other person had multiple partners, that was fine as long as at the end of the day they wanted to stay besties and maybe cuddle once in a while.

4.

It was mid morning, and the sun would usually be very bright by this point, but it was blocked by a few clouds, providing some shade to the pitch. It felt like a good day to ball around a bit.

As usual, there were only a few people at first, maybe just kicking or throwing a medium-sized ball made from materials found around the island, as well as some plastics that had washed up on the shore from long ago. Usually, if you found plastics, you could take them to a plastismith and they would shape an object for you using their melting tools, and the most likely request a ball.

Ball was one of the most popular pastimes on all the islands. It didn’t have a particular name, because there were no particular rules, other than using a ball (and even that was up for debate). Some areas had big fields to play in, some had small flat streets. In some places, people liked to use their feet, in some places, people liked to use their hands. Some people liked to use goals and keep a score, some people didn’t. One thing that was common was that there were no “teams,” and no tournaments. People from one island might like to play together, but they were happy to play with people from other islands as well. Anyone who wanted to play was welcome to play, and the game would adapt its rules to fit the players. If there was a player that could not use their legs, people would find a way to play a game of Ball sitting down. If a player had slow mobility, everyone would also play slowly. These variations were what made the game interesting, dynamic, changing.

Games weren’t usually scheduled, but they were most common when harvests were ended and there was plenty of time to eat, play and relax. Which made today a little unusual, since it was still in the middle of growing season. But the weather was nice, and sure enough, one could see people gathering towards the pitch like wandering clouds.

The Forest, Chapter 2

A dance in the sky

Au moved. In concentric circles, in cross patterns and shapes, in movements alien and unknown to them.

Au moved.

The mech bent in the sky; it was pliable, flexible, free in ways they could never imagine. The movement of grace, from the fingertips to the toes of its body filled them with a sense of confidence, comfort, belonging.

The moves felt fluid and intuitive. It was impossible to move in a straight line, every curve warped around itself fractally. This movement was new to them yet felt like they’d known it for a long time, connected to some deeper form of energy. Entangled in this mystery, they pressed further, moved deeper, as if entwined by the gentle hold of the vines. The sun peeked through the trees, and they felt a light sweat, but a cooling system kicked in, almost as if responding to their feelings. This must have been more than a machine, they thought.

As this was happening, the joysticks began to recede into the mech. At first, Au was shocked. How were they supposed to control anything now? Adrenaline. Sweat. Panic flowed through them as they froze in fear.

Yet somehow, they could feel the mech guiding them, gently pulling them into movements. Rather than use joysticks, Au started to use their own hands freely, as if in a dance. This felt so intuitive, so right. They arced their hands over their head, and the mech responded in kind.

The seat began to move away, and they found themselves floating within the machine. This must have been some sort of antigravity device, but it felt so natural. They realized the size of the mech must have changed to suit these new conditions as well, for the tank had to be big enough to hold their entire body.

They looked down at the world below, an endless canopy of trees in every direction. A purple pink-tinted sky stretched before them, with just a hint of golden sunset (or was it sunrise?) off in the distance.

Au thought to look for some place to land, or make contact. They felt a sense of balance, calmness, as if they had known all along that this would be the place where they came, and that the path would open for them. They looked at the sky and saw 3 moons rising, all in a thin crescent shape, and decided to head in that direction. The ease of the feeling of flight, the sight of birds flying above the canopy, the colorful sunset and the rising moons seemed to blend together for them in this moment, distracting them from the quickness with which the mech tore through the sky.

The Forest, Chapter 1

From the Desert to the Forest

Author’s note: The protagonist Au (they/them) lives on a desert planet somewhere in the far reaches of the Milky Way. One day while exploring in a depopulated area in the middle of the desert, they stumble on a cave with what looks to be an ancient form of portal.

Au stepped through the portal and found themselves in a forest, dense, thick with the sounds of chirping birds. It was humid, nothing like the dry expanse of the Great Desert. Yet they didn’t miss it, all the inky machines they were leaving behind. Somehow, they knew they needed this. Yet it was good to just be sure. They stepped back through the portal. And yes, the desert remained on the other side. They could go back, if they needed to.

Armed with this confidence, they decided to return and begin to move into the dense forest. The plant life here was nothing like that of the desert; the leaves were vibrant, thinner and yet durable. The trees were almost pulsing with life. “Khay [^Khay] would absolutely love this,” Au thought to themselves.

There were also creatures, none harmful, just more shy in Au’s presence. A few they could reach a hand out to and almost touch, as if making a peace offering. The vibrations of life here were more palpable, not a concept but a thing to experience, to feel.

Through the trees, Au noticed a clearing. They made their way over, finding a space maybe about 10×10 meters in size, but with light pouring through. In the center there seemed to be a mossy stone with light shining down upon it as bugs and other creatures flittered around.

Cautiously, they made their way closer, when they realized exactly what it was: a strange gigantic humanoid robot.

Excited, they began to clear off the foliage as best as they could. The vines clung to it tenaciously at first, but eventually they gave way. “This mech must be ancient,” they thought to themselves. As the vines fell off, they began to notice some letters painted on the side, however they were not alphabetic or Chinese, or anything else they could recognize. [^2]

As more vines came off, they began to notice the features of the mech more clearly. It appeared to be about twice the size of a human, with a deep emerald green paint job (“needs some work”). Although anthropomorphic, this giant robot had 2 sets of arms. It seemed as though it would be very agile on the ground as well as in the trees.

With a little searching, they found the opening to the pilot’s compartment. It was not rusted shut. In fact, it opened quite easily. Which was strange, because the inside smelled moldy, as though it hadn’t been used in years. There was no pilot corpse or any sort of remains to be found; this mech was abandoned.

Au searched for a way to reactivate it. There was a little difficulty, because nothing was in the place where they would recognize it. However, with a little luck and a few crossed wires, the dash lit up. Amazing. Even the dash looked completely different from anything they’d ever seen, but it seemed that the size was right for a human. They put their hands on two joysticks. Everything felt rather intuitive, and the engines behind them seemed to hum as if they had just been turned on yesterday. As the mech began to warm up, the vines and leaves began to fall away, and the animals cleared. Au held their breath, pressed down on the throttle, and the mech began to move.

Although the engines were working fine, they could tell there was a little rust in the joints, so they did some basic excercises to improve rotation and mobility (“robot yoga,” they called it). In no time, the mech was feeling more agile and adept. Curiously, Au saw a bright green button on the control panel. “I wonder…” they thought to themselves. Without hesitation, they hit the button, and they felt a system begin to engage. On the HUD in front of them, a message popped up:

> [Flight Systems Activated]

Au let out a yelp of surprise, then felt the thrusters below them as the mech began to lift into the sky. Here, the joysticks began to feel intuitive to them as they moved around in loops, nosediving and weaving through tropical birds in the sky. “This flight system is unbelievable,” they thought to themselves as they preformed agile maneuvers with ease. But strangely, they decided not to continue back to the portal. It was time to explore this strange new world.

[^Khay]: A botanist and Au’s main love interest. [^2]: We would most likely recognize them as Runic.

10: Splendor

Peter sighed. He’d been in the garage with his tools all morning, but he couldn’t seem to make any progress. Sometimes, the tools could help, and sometimes they just got in the way. He was hungry, and craved snacks and baseball for some mysterious reason. He also knew where he wanted to go, but the time wasn’t right for it yet—the café would have to wait.

Zee laced up their boots and continued on their journey through the temple, filled with a rich and healing energy. They were not quite sure where to go next, but there was a sense of confidence that the right path would open up.

Adam was surrounded by plants, a jungle; he loved it and most definitely did not want to leave. This place was beautiful, rich in color. Beyond the plants, there was abundant wildlife: Lizards scurrying on the ground, the sound of birds echoed from the treetops.

There were so many beautiful ways to get distracted in this place, and he felt that it would be difficult to appreciate anywhere else after being surrounded in such splendor. It was so easy to get lost in the details here, to be filled with a sense of wonder. There was no point in trying anything else—was there?

11: Delta

Zee found a door, a heavy door made of oak, and pushed it wide open. She was blinded with light and overwhelmed by a gust of hot wind. As her eyes adjusted, she knew that this was it: The Delta.

In some respects, the Delta was very much like the Desert: both were hot and flat, and both were home to a city called Memphis. However, where the Desert’s dry heat could sometimes be seen as refreshing, that was never the case in the Delta. Its thick humidity surrounded you like a wool blanket on a warm day; it felt like breathing through cotton. There were no deep blue dry skies here either; everything had a faded look, like it was 30 years older than it should have been, which was fair enough, because the South was often said to live in the past.

Zee took off their shoes and laid them at the foot of a tree. The entrance back into the temple was through what appeared to be a cellar door, but they knew it would not stay there forever. They had no need to go back through, only to cross the hot flat land of Mississippi to arrive at their destination.

Daf was already at the café when Peter arrived, much to his surprise.

“How ya been stranger? Long time no see,” he said, warmly.

“Oh it hasn’t been that long now, has it? Just a few days. You miss me that much?”

“You know how it is, sitting on the sidelines.”

“Actually, I don’t have the faintest idea of what you’re talking about.”

Peter blushed slightly. “It wasn’t always that way, you know.”

“I know, I know. So, you think your boy’s made it to the Temple by now?”

“He’s not my boy.”

“Sure, sure.”

“Yeah, he’s probably made it. Hey, I’m going go to order my drink, do you need anything?”

“No, I’m alright.”

As Peter got up, Daf thought about lighting up a cigarette, but held back. Better to just deal with the nicotine craving for now, she thought.

In the window of the café were some fresh baked goods, and people were sitting outside, some talking, some reading the paper. It was mid-summer in Memphis, and fairly swampy, but the heat was manageable, almost pleasant in the shade.

She looked over at Peter. He was in good shape for his age. His style was a little old-fashioned, khaki’s and a tucked in polo shirt, but she could let that slide.

Peter came back with his standard cup of coffee. “Anyway, what were we talking about?”

“Adam. Think he made it?”

“Of course. It’s not a question of if he made it, but what he’ll find.”

“Haven’t we discussed this before? The Temple is a sacred place with imagery that speaks to the deepest levels of our subconscious. Everyone experiences it differently.”

“What did you experience?” He asked curiously.

“Depends. Which time? My first time was terrifying. The second time, less so. The third time was beautiful.”

“This is Adam’s first time.”

“So it’s probably gonna be interesting for him. But it’s not in the actual encounter, but what you do with it afterwards that counts.

Many people are shocked and overwhelmed, and they try to go back to their life as they lived before, only to find that it’s impossible.

Some take the ascetic route, shave their heads and devote themselves to the divine.

Some just try to make their own way forward, not quite the same as they had been before, and not quite the other.”

“My hope is that Adam follows that last path,” Peter said cheerfully.

“Ah, I thought so! He is your boy after all.

12: Lila

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After a long walk through the delta, Zee took a break at a gas station. They got some fried catfish and a large cola and sat down at a booth.

“I don’t think a lot of people get me,” they said to the lady sitting there.

“Probably not. But what do you mean by that?”

“I guess all the things I do, the adventures I have, they’re always just a side note to The Adam Show. And of course, Adam will find that thing he’s looking for, he’ll get the girl, and all will be right with the world. There will be festivals, statues, babies.”

“Know what I think?”

“What?”

“Seems like there’s a construct is at the heart of it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s useful in order to make distinctions, up to a point, but right now, maybe it defines your relationship too much to Adam. Girl/Boy. You don’t don’t even identify as a girl, right?”

“Yeah like I’m the normal one and the ‘boy’ is some kind of strange mutation of that,” they said with a wink.

“But it sounds to me like the story of a boy losing his best friend, due to the constructs and rules of society. You get to a certain age, and ‘boys and girls’ can’t be friends any more. Or, a kid can’t have their best friend. Or, a kid can’t have their ‘imaginary friend’.”

“Oh. I see.” Zee was clearly miffed. “You don’t need to put quote marks around imaginary friend, you know. I see what you’re trying to do. Identify the complex, shape the story. Boy seeks to come of age, but a renegade ‘imaginary friend’ won’t let him, and tries to stop him at all costs. Later, said imaginary friend is brought into line, recognizes their place. ‘Protagonist Boy’ finds love and propagates the species. Sound about right?

I mean I get it. I can’t exist outside the construction of this world, and Adam can. In fact, he has to, so I can’t rock the boat too much, or else.

“Else what?” The lady asked.

“He self destructs. He’s no longer able to function and therefore, bye bye desert, bye bye delta, bye bye jungle and whatever else. I mean, I’m not trying to bring about the end of this.”

“Don’t you worship Kali?”

“Yes. But that doesn’t mean that I want the end of the world. Far from it, I just want to exist and go on having adventures. And I love that boy, I do. Love him like my best friend, my brother. I want to keep on having adventures, and maybe a few of those we can have together.

But together forever? No thanks. I’d also like to be alone, to hide among the deer, with nature, safe, protected.”

“So I guess you know the rules here, but have you told Adam that? I think he’d appreciate it and respect you for it. He might even give up whatever phallic object he’s chasing after.”

Zee slunk back in their plastic chair and took a long pull of Big Gulp Soda.

“If you’ll allow me a moment to be philosophical,” Zee said, “what is this world?”

“Well, we’re in a gas station, there’s plastic chairs, Big Gulp Soda,” the lady said. “It’s a pretty hot day outside, very sticky out there in fact.”

“Yeah, of course, of course. But beyond the objects?”

“Well, I’ve always liked that view that this world is just a Play of the Gods, I think there’s a Hindu term for it? Not Samsara, a little lighter.”

Zee took out their phone and looked it up. “It’s called Lila.”

A cover of Everybody Knows played on the radio. Both of them paused. The room didn’t change, but both of them could feel a sense of vibrance and fullness, a sense that there was something deep and special about this moment in a roadside gas station.

“Can a mere character reach satori?” Zee asked.

“Why not?”

13.

Crisp white shirt and khaki pants. Peter had finished his espresso, written his letters, read the paper. This was the ritual of his extrinsic life, and he was proud of it for its backwardness. Why stare tat the screen when you could stare at paper?

But he knew that it was a privilege to engage in such an activity, an old fashioned way of doing exactly the same thing everyone else was doing. Luxury in the mundane, he called it. Looking out at the window, his thoughts were empty. He had nothing more to put down for the moment. It was time to get up and leave the cafe.

14.

Peter and Daf were talking.

“Not even sure if it matters that much anymore,” Peter said.

“What doesn’t matter?”

“This thing, whatever we’re doing. I wonder if it’s served its purpose, outlived its usefulness.”

“Somehow, I doubt that. We know, in a way, what we’re doing: creating something. And although it’s not quite perfect, we continue on, creating as if our lives depended on it, because in a way, they do,” Daf said, stirring her coffee.

“It’s easy to get distracted sometimes.”

“Sure, that’s the nature of the business, but it’s also nature to become invisible, functional.”

“Sounds like a boring way to live.”

“But I think we’re also on the verge of something amazing, the creation of a new style that works in spite of itself, a style so effortless and clean that it just feels natural to continue,” Daf countered with a gleam in her eyes.

“It’s zen, right?” Peter asked. “lowercase z. The simple things.”

“If we follow this way, I have a feeling things will be so much different.”

15.

Khansa saw the young man walking through the garden, admiring the plants. She smiled; he looked much better.

It was truly an amazing thing, the power these plants had to heal, nurture, and inspire.

Adam took his time and wandered slowly among the plants, the bright green leaves and flowers were reassuring and enjoyable for him, especially after the hot whites and blues of the desert.

He lingered among the plants like old friends, and it was a long time before he noticed someone watching him.

Which shouldn’t have come as a surprise; after all, this garden couldn’t have come about on it’s own. Nevertheless, the white hood of the watcher contrasted so strongly with the deep green hues of the plants that he was surprised he hadn’t noticed the person before. He glanced over with the intent of making contact, but they were gone. So he continued meandering and found a place to rest.

Khansa moved through the trees into a passage that led to a tunnel lit by torches, cool and quiet. With silent footsteps, she made her way through the passage, a part of her home, a place she’d been so many times that she didn’t really need the torchlight. Stopping at an innocuous stone, she raised two fingers and uttered an incantation. The stone moved.

Now, she moved down a narrower passage. It was warmer, and the damp air filled her lungs. For what seemed like hours, she traveled with slow breaths down the narrow path. Most would have given up at this stage, but she knew the way—she was not intimidated—she had her destination in mind.

Peter’s espresso was nearly finished. He was riding a buzz, not interested in leaving this place. Here is where he wanted to be, right here and taking his time, not in any hurry, no particular place to be. Of course, life wasn’t perfect, but that was to be expected. Just a little more time before the work that had to be done.

“Well, this is it,” he thought to himself as he got out of the old comfy armchair in the corner of the cafe. “Time to go to work.